It’s my birthday! I’m 23 years old..
That awkward stage where on the one hand I’m supposedly all grown up because I’m working now and finished school but I’m also basically the baby at work and in my career and often have the look of a deer in headlights in that space.
I don’t know how I feel about “growing up”. On the one hand I’m so proud of everything that I’ve achieved at this age and on the other hand I have this fear of not reaching my goals like time is running out. I know most of you (probably my older readers) will think, oh come on Pelo you have all the time in the world, but if you are older you have to admit you likely once felt this way too.
Anyway unlike the past few years this past year wasn’t one of ‘traditional’ milestones (graduation, getting a job, getting a car etc) so I went through a phase in the past few weeks where I was like but what have I done this year???
Then I realized this year unlike any other is the year that I knew I could really believe in myself and that’s because this year I saw people invest in me. Not just monetarily, but from Lesedi who volunteered to drive out to Joburg every single weekend to help me take my pics for the blog, to one of my colleagues pushing so hard for me and helping me step by step to make my blog professional (note, this isn’t even someone who’s into the fashion blogging scene, just someone who saw I had a blog and wanted me to be great). All this and so much more happened this year. Not to mention being surrounded by amazing people!
It’s all about the small victories and the thought that people out there actually want to take a chance on me is amazing.
This is also the year I truly came into my self. I can call myself an independent young woman and though it’s really not easy, I’m still waking up and somehow doing it again and again each day and that for me is an achievement on its own.
You know when they say ‘do you’? That would basically be how I would describe my year, it’s not easy in today’s world to truly be yourself but this is the year I really focused on me and what I wanted to do whether or not it made sense.
Okay, I’m rambling. I could literally go on forever.. but I guess I’m just so excited to see what the future holds.
I love this verse and it’s one of those verses that I actually look back at when I’m feeling doubtful, worried or scared about something:
“God has not given us the power of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind”
– 1 Timothy 1:7
Also, truly, thank you for taking the time to actually go through my blog and still coming back each week, whether you actually read what I write or just skip through to the pictures, I truly appreciate it all.
So I go forth into the year of 23 fearless (as fearless as I can be, lol) and knowing that I can conquer anything!